Sunday, August 2, 2015

Telling The Kids We Are Pregnant, 11 Weeks.

We told our kids we are pregnant. We pulled out an ultrasound photo of baby as a 10 week blob, (they have seen enough ultrasound photos to know this means there's a baby) 

"Mummy's having another baby!!!!!!! Woohoooo!!!!"

And you know what? They are super excited! Isn't that just beautiful!? They have been through such a huge journey with us, they watched their mummy be pregnant and they bonded with their sister, walked the journey of meeting their stillborn sister, Emme, having their own hopes and expectations dashed, processing what death means.... And yet! Such excitement. It's really beautiful. That pure heart. 

There was the expected questions of: 

"Will this baby come home with us?"

"Will this baby be dead?" 
(Phoenix is 4 so he processes everything very matter of factly. I don't find this question offensive at all, he needs to ask) 

We answered as best as we could. I cannot guarantee that yes this baby will come home with us, but we have hope. 
So I said... "Gosh we hope so!!" 

We all decided that once we find out what baby's gender is, we would all go shopping and buy him/her special outfits picked out by the kids. It was important that they see that we are planning towards this baby joining us and being their little sibling. 

I'm so proud of our kids, I'm proud of their resilience and willingness to keep going, to keep believing for the best dispite what life has thrown lately. 

Mud day at preschool. 

Saturday concerts are a regular event around here. 

How far along? 11 weeks, whoops no photo again. 
How big is the peanut? 4.1cm, a fig
Total weight gain/loss? Dunno. I eat. 
Maternity clothes? Not yet, but that hair tie around the button really helps take the pressure off!! 
Sleep? One wee, one snoring hubby, but other than that really comfy. 
Best moment this week? Not a best moment, but a funny one- I fainted in Coles!! At the checkouts. I felt funny as I was shopping, I know that feeling well, I thought I'll just finish shopping and then can sit on the couch just outside of Coles and eat all the snacks that had crept accidentally into my Trolly. 
Put all the items on the belt, and then had to sit down in the bagging area cause I got all hot and sweaty and heart pounding and then black. 
I opened my eyes and I was laying on the floor at the checkouts in my hot pink cannot-miss-me jumper. What a weirdo. Having a nap in the middle of Coles. Hehe. Quick Ambulace ride to the nearest hospital for a checkup, all good, just need to stop sooner next time. What a fun adventure. 

Phoenix was my hero, he looked after me. And the next time we went to Coles I got a stern talking to from him "Mummy, don't faint." Yes sir! 

Symptoms? Light headnes, dizzy, nausea, heartburn, minimal loo trips. 
Food cravings? Sugar and hummus and carrots 
Food aversions? Nope
Gender? Don't know, Milla thinks girl, Phoenix thinks boy. 
Labor signs? No
Belly button in or out? In
What I miss? Nothing
What I'm looking forward to? Baby cuddles, nappies, feeding
Milestones? 11 weeks done and dusted. 
Bump? Real good bloat, which I'm blaming on the ever increasing uterus- not the ever increasing hunger :-) ok it's both.